Young mothers and babies. Foreign languages. Hot air blowing on a cold rainy day. Spanish music playing overhead. Laughter. Dishes clanking. The joy around leading to internal panic. Being an outsider to it all. An observer and documentarian. And I wonder at their lack of self-consciousness. I look at the girl with the short asymmetrical haircut and I want it. It suits her face perfectly. And yet I know I will never try it myself. Would I ever be able to pull it off? She has on a sheer pink dress over jeans. You can see her black bra underneath. She is confident. She’s not the kind of person who dissects everyone else. She’s too busy participating.