All tagged anxiety
What do you do when things go wrong? Like, really wrong. If you're anything like me you probably binge a new series on Netflix or treat yourself to a delicious chocolately treat. Or if you're like Olga-past you'd go out and drink enough to forget. Maybe you buy yourself the latest mindfulness, wellbeing or self help book because this time you mean it, goddammit. Does this sound familiar?
I realised that I was indulging in all of these behaviours to fill some void, to distract myself, to feel comforted, to forget, to cope.
I love being an introvert. I love being an indoor kid. Nothing pleases me like settling into my couch with a book and a cup of tea. Or going to dinner with a friend and spending hours talking about my deepest desires. Most of the time I think the world isn't so bad for us introverts. But other times I get angry and frustrated with the way the world favours extrovert.
Today is a whimper rather than a bang. It’s the kind of day where the muggy, oppressive air has infiltrated my psyche slowing me down.
one comment turns into a weird look
that look gets bigger and bigger
until your heart is pounding
I’m exhausted. I came to Bristol and hit the ground running, setting up meetings, volunteering, working on my writing, attending work-related events, exploring the city, etc. I’m not complaining because I have seen the fruits of my labour. I have a lovely house with amazing housemates that I consider my friends.