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Today is the one year anniversary on my redundancy. This time last year I was being called into the back office and told that while this decision was very difficult I was being let go. I was given hugs and sent on my way. But not before a manager suggested I stay at home because my partner has a well paid job so I don’t need to work. Yep. That’s the kind of job environment I left behind.
I realised that I was indulging in all of these behaviours to fill some void, to distract myself, to feel comforted, to forget, to cope.
I love being an introvert. I love being an indoor kid. Nothing pleases me like settling into my couch with a book and a cup of tea. Or going to dinner with a friend and spending hours talking about my deepest desires. Most of the time I think the world isn't so bad for us introverts. But other times I get angry and frustrated with the way the world favours extrovert.
I have hit the wall of optimism. There is no more.
I’ve been on an optimistic high for so long and now I’m crashing. Reality is biting me at every turn. I’ve lived in the creative bubble for the past three months now, thinking that if I just worked hard enough I would persevere. I want to tell you that this is what happened but it’s not.